nothingness

I'm not sure what to write. Last night I typed into the search box on my computer. I want to die. I'm numb inside, not suicidal. Just numb and words can't explain the magnitude of what im going through, what i'm feeling, the nothingness that ive become. I have seen my therapist and we agreed to try something to lift my mood. Thing is she and her colleague, a psychiatrist and myself know i'm not clinically depressed. it's just right now my life is so crappy even she's astounded at the rate bad things seem to happen to me. continually. and it's just me. no friends, noone to talk too.. no support system.. no outlet.. I carry so much weight on my shoulders. I'm just going to stop talking right now. If your a prayer. Pray. If not..