Monday, December 6, 2010
nothingness
I'm not sure what to write. Last night I typed into the search box on my computer. I want to die. I'm numb inside, not suicidal. Just numb and words can't explain the magnitude of what im going through, what i'm feeling, the nothingness that ive become. I have seen my therapist and we agreed to try something to lift my mood. Thing is she and her colleague, a psychiatrist and myself know i'm not clinically depressed. it's just right now my life is so crappy even she's astounded at the rate bad things seem to happen to me. continually. and it's just me. no friends, noone to talk too.. no support system.. no outlet.. I carry so much weight on my shoulders. I'm just going to stop talking right now. If your a prayer. Pray. If not..
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Prayed for us both, T. 2010 has been a bad year.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the antidepressant.
In addition I recommend journalling. Free writing may get thoughts off your mind long enough for you to sleep/recharge. (Don't feel obliged to read it back either.)
You have my cyber-support.
Best wishes for 2011, T. Thinking of you xx
ReplyDeleteApologies to leave multiple comments on the same page, T. I'll check in here once a month, if that's OK. Hope you are staying afloat.
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